It's very obvious to me right now, in the wee hours of the morning, with my work still undone. I simply cannot do this alone.
I don't have the strength. I don't have the willpower. I don't have the determination, and I don't have the wisdom.
I cannot do my job alone. I cannot be the wife I ought to be, the mom I ought to be, the housekeeper I ought to be, the friend I ought to be, the church member I ought to be, or the neighbor I ought to be. I simply can't.
Without God I can't do a thing. I'm helpless. Inadequate. Foolish. I make mistake after mistake. I get frustrated with myself, my circumstances, and those around me.
So why do I try? How do I allow myself to get too busy to remember the One who holds me up? When I take my eyes off Him, I fall. Swiftly, every time, I fall. But somehow, the same way I forget to eat when I am busy, so do I forget to rest in the Lord, to feed on His Word. Instead of focusing more on Him when things get hectic, I focus more on what needs to be done, and that is how I fail.
Lord, please help me to keep my eyes always on You. You are so much bigger than my problems. So much bigger than my responsibilities. Please help me to be who I ought to be, to do what I ought to do in a way that pleases You.
And thank You for lifting me up every time I realize I've fallen. Thank you for forgiving me for my mistakes and my failures. Thank you for giving me the chance to rise again and conquer in Your power. You are my strength, and your strength is made perfect in weakness.
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